Kundalini Awakening Symptoms
Symptoms of Kundalini Awakening
Real Life Experiences & Descriptions of Kundalini Rising
Are you going through a kundalini awakening episode or experience? Let’s find out…
Kundalini awakening symptoms are truly a very intriguing subject. Really there is no correct answer to the question, “What are the symptoms of Kundalini Rising?”, as thankfully, each of us is absolutely unique and thus, on a unique trajectory on the path to Kundalini Awakening. That said, there are some common kundalini experiences that are often reported, which I would like to share with you in this article.
Although we can draw up endless lists of symptoms from third party accounts, I would like to instead make this series about kundalini symptoms that you or I have actually experienced. In this article, I will give a recent account from one of my students about what she experienced shortly after class, and then I will add my own kundalini experiences and observations as well.
In the comments section, I encourage you to add any kundalini awakening experiences or symptoms you have felt, so others can better understand what they might be going through. Here is the recent email I received from my student, Aida:
Aida’s Experience of Kundalini Awakening:
I am a student of the “Gentle Kundalini Class”. I just finished taking a series of exercise specifically for the spine.
As I left the class I felt energized as I usually feel after each class, but this time it was a little different, I was feeling extra aware of my surrounding. Like a light turned on. My back was so straight. It lasted all day.If I could go to class every morning I would go. It makes my day start right in every way. And there are times when I am not feeling like going to class and I push myself to go and do not regret it.Thank you for being my teacher.Aida D.
For those interested, here is a link to the Spinal Warmup Kundalini Yoga Kriya we did in class that day. Thank you Aida, for sharing your personal experiences with us.
This particular experience of kundalini is very interesting and significant. This is because it is the common experience of advanced meditation and of kundalini yoga. In the article, Powerful Kundalini Yoga Battles Profound Zen Meditation, I described my own such experience with kundalini awakening, but not from doing kundalini yoga, but instead from doing Silent Mind Meditation!
Aida’s experience points at the two things that all yoga and meditation boils down to. Energy and Awareness.
My favorite description of Kundalini Yoga is, “The Yoga of Awareness,” and as you see from her account, she felt more aware, as the energy of kundalini had risen up her spine. In meditation, it is the same. The demand for intense awareness, in order to comprehend the thought process via direct perception, leads to energy (kundalini) rising up and elongating the spine. Awareness then follows.
Jiddu Krishnamurti describes this experience of kundlaini energy flowing up the spine as “The rush of water filling up and thus causing a pipe to stand erect.”
When we insist that the spine be straight during meditation, it is simply to facilitate this awakening and thus, to assist in being more aware. I have experienced kundalini rising and puling up with such force, during meditation, that it sometimes make me feel as if I am going to be launched right off the ground or as if it’s going to pull my head off and up into the sky.
Symptoms of Kundalini Awakening:
I am going to describe some of the physical symptoms my students or I have felt due to kundalini awakening. I know there are many emotional and mental symptoms as well, and you are welcome to share those with us in the comments section below. I am grouping the experiences into 3 categories, common, uncommon and rare, according to what I have observed.
Common Kundalini Awakening Symptoms:
- Tingling in the body and brain region. Also sometimes described as ants walking, tickling energy or flushes of energy. The brain being flushed with energy is quite pleasant :-).
- Heat or cold in the system, or running along various channels and chakra centers.
- Fluttering or twitching of muscles.
- Pinching or burning in various regions of the body or brain.
Uncommon Kundalini Awakening Symptoms:
- Pressure in the Third Eye Region (Ajna Chakra). This is pressure, tingling or other sensation in the center of the forehead. Can go on for years (14 years and counting so far for me). Caution: If the pressure, due to certain practices, intensifies to uncomfortable levels you feel are “immense”, you should cease that practice and consult a competent kundalini yoga teacher.
- Sudden bursts of energy anywhere in the body. These are almost always short lived, from a few seconds to a few minutes.
- Spontaneous yoga asans or kundalini yoga movements. They may come on spontaneously, or they may take over, as if on auto-pilot when one is practicing Kundalini Yoga Kriyas or Exercises (For an example see article: Explosive Kundalini Rising in Class Today).
- Kundalini Shakti rising up and elongating the spine.
- Incredible feeling of love and desire for your partner (not ordinary lust, alcohol induced or otherwise :-). Usually comes upon you spontaneously, deep in the night. Sex feels like it’s the first such experience and the intense feelings of attraction emanate from somewhere beyond yourself.
- Unfortunately, pain in the lower back, back of the neck and headaches.
Rare Kundalini Awakening Symptoms:
- Experience of divine light within. Very intense light, usually pure white and incredibly beautiful. I call it the Radiation of the Lord.
- Tremendous vibratory energy (sometimes feels like it’s coming from the inner ears). Very blissful, but can intensify to the point where it would completely overwhelm your consciousness if you let it.
- Spontaneous bliss, intensely pleasurable.
- This one is a bit scary. Complete paralysis of the body. Complete immobility and rigidity takes place. As with the all consuming vibratory energy, it requires some courage to allow.
- This one is exceedingly rare. I have experienced it only once in my life, and have only ever read about it being experienced by one other – the master of awareness, G. I. Gurdjieff. The arms and legs churn like that of a baby. It happens naturally and cannot be simulated. It is also intensely pleasurable and quite a remarkable experience.
There are of course a wide range of transcendental experiences, some of which you will find described in the category Spiritual Enlightenment Experiences. Above, I have provide those that are more commonly associated with kundalini awakening, although many would argue, including Swami Vivekananda, that all enlightenment experiences have to do with kundalini entering the brain region in some capacity.
So if you have experienced some kundalini symptoms as well, please do share them with us below. I think it will benefit others identify if what they are going through is actually symptoms of the ever mysterious kundalini awakening.
Hi, about a year ago I had a bizarre experience at a party I hosted which I now believe (especially after reading this symptom list) was awakening the Kundalini. Before this experience I had never heard of awakening the Kundalini. For the longest time I described this experience as a kind of orgasm of the mind body and soul as I experienced complete and utter bliss as well as intensely pleasurable almost overwhelming sort of tingling vibrating energies from my lower back up to my head. My spine was elongated and then my head thrown back uncontrollably and then I became paralyzed and could not move, I am not sure for how long probably only about a minute but it felt like an eternity. through out this time I had conjured up an image of a man I used to know, I could see him so clearly, around him was only darkness yet he was lit up. I felt immense spiritual attraction to this man and felt as if I was one with him. All this occurred after having an intense conversation and then making intense lingering eye contact with a person who had apparently worked with me a year or two before, he remembered me but I could not remember him and the whole evening was trying to recall what he looked like back then and what we had talked about at work. I also felt a strong spiritual attraction to this person and felt intensely connected to him that whole night. What happened in the days to follow….It was the worst pain I had ever experienced. Repressed memories that were buried deep in my unconscious about the man I had conjured the image of flooded into consciousness I faced spiritual and psychological trials that I was not equipped to handle, I was completely overwhelmed, I could not eat or sleep for three days and progressed to a full on psychotic break and I had to be hospitalized. Now as I type this I feel a pressure in my third eye I can push the feeling out of my consciousness when I become focused on the typing but when I think of it it is there and if I pause and let my energies shift deep into my mind I feel light vibrating energies in my face and head if I sit for a while and retreat deeper I can almost feel those energies moving up my spine from my lower back. But this is nothing like the that time last year. To this day I am plagued by the memories I recalled that night. I am seeing a psychiatrist and a counselor, but do you have any suggestions as to how to heal from this traumatic awakening? I want to explore this further, become more mentally disciplined and experience this again with out such intense suffering afterwards.
I don’t know if what I experienced is Kundalini energy moving, but fromt he descriptions here, it sounds like it might be. I am an absolute newbie when it comes to meditation. Two weeks ago I attended a meditation meeting with a guru from India. There was a lot of chanting, my whole body fizzed, and meditation was very easy. A few days later I sat with a meditation group where again we chanted and meditated (Not for very long, I have not yet figured how to keep my thoughts from breaking it). Yesterday I sat with the group again, and I had rather an unsettling experience.
After a while I experienced a rather pleasant feeling of having no arms. Then I felt as though I had no legs either, and then no body at all. All that was left of me was a very intense area in my forehead, that was made up of very bright yellow (fiery) light, getting brighter and brighter and more and more intense in feeling. It felt like it was pulling me away from the world entirely, so I pulled myself out of it, and came back to reality. I felt very, very silent, and did not really want to talk or even to move.
But I now am feeling this great pressure in my forehead, and am having difficulty working, as the pressure builds the more I concentrate. Touching my forehead lightly with my finger seems to help.
What happened, and what should I do? Is it good or is it bad? Should I stop meditating or should I continue? As I said I am a complete novice at this, and really didn’t think that anything like that would happen to someone as new to meditation as I am.
Thank you, Beelu
Hello,
My roommate is trying to find enlightenment. Long story short, he is making a documentary about his quest to find the Blue Flower – or, he is on the quest to find ultimate healing. In his journey, he is now living in complete darkness. He is boarded up in his room with no light (trust me) and he’s on his 5th day. He’s starting to feel sick to his stomach and is worried as to why this is.
He is being fed, and has availability to the bathroom and showers (still in the dark) and he’s drinking plenty of water. I don’t know much about it, but I know that the brain produces DMT or something..
You can check out his website here: http://www.ablueflower.com
Thanks,
Steph
I think I am going through this. I had pneumonia pretty bad in February. During that time I saw images when I closed my eyes, nice calming images. I feel like spiders crawling over me. I have found god and know he is with me. I have back pain that feels like water running in there. Most of all I feel love for the world.
So glad, I found this site!!!!!!! I am experiencing the muscle spasms all over, chest pains as though the fibers in my chest muscles are being twisted, then it stops after awhile, I too went to the ER they just looked at me like I was crazy. This along with the realization that I am not the personality I thought I was, that I am not the these things or accomplishments I have accumulated… earth shattering indeed…
Excellent approach to discuss under one banner. I am a practitioner of Kundalini. There are various experiences in my life. Once I went to the period of Shiridi Saibaba who was making alive a dead infront of me. When I asked him how you did, he explained saying that once you forget your own self, everything is taken care by Him. The moment anyone thinks that he has done, becomes an individual and in that the supreme power doesn’t flow. This is the reason, the great saints always be humble and simple.
so other people have had experience of kundalini leaking into other people?? my energy seems to be going into my female neighbours and causing some trouble.. i’ve been having metaphysical experiences since the age of 15(32 now)
the first time i reached spntaneous cosmic consciousness and felt the light and energy flowing from top to bottom inside me was spring 2008 and lasted for about a month or 2.(very pleasurable tho scary and made me very weepy and emotional) ever since then i noticed vibrating in my bed when i was trying to go to sleep. then in 2010 it happened again also lasting 1 or 2 months.. i had lots and lots of visions during this period(i had a few telepathic moments(that turned out to be true) during the 2008 episode as well)
i ended up in hospital after the 2010 experience after an extreme kundalini session where my body paralysed and became one with the spirit.the room also darkened nearly to pitch black at this moment and was very scary and my heart went out of control.the next day i panic attacked and feinted at work and nearly had a heart attack.
since then i can feel peoples energy fields ,have a constant vibrating feel above my groin,self ejaculate,leg spasm (baby curve) pretty much all the time as well as most of the symptoms above. i could go on about this all day..this doesn’t even begin to cover the amount of things that have happened or my sleep paralysis experiences such as letting entities climb inside me and vibrating the most i have ever felt.
all i can say is dont be scared,be healthy and embrace the love!
i suppose i’m lucky non of my symptoms contain pain but mostly pleasure (sometimes mild discomfort from the groin and obvious kundalini sleep problems)
I have went through spontanous Kundalini awakening a few years ago after meeting a person online with whom I have a strong spiritual connection with (empathy, telepathy, long-distance touch), though at the time, I had no idea it was Kundalini.
I have experienced most of the symptoms listed, but the reason why I am posting right now is because I wanted to let you know that I, too, have experienced the churning of arms and legs a few times when my soul communed with that of my “soulmate”. Spasms and intense shaking, but not unpleasant at all! However, it got very voilent and exhausting at one point, and it slowly stopped when my “soulmate” willingly tried to ease up the connection between us. It was like I was being raised to a different vibration my body was not used to, and that, along with other kundalini symptoms, were the side-effects.
Hope the information is of value to you.
Thank you for this wonderful article,
Anima
I am currently experiencing many of the common and uncommon symptoms. Most of which at the moment is the back pain, which was to my knowledge not affected in any physical way. I also occasionally feel an intense inner heat at times of mentally stimulating moments as well as meditation. Tonight I went to a meditation class after several years of individual study, and I feel the like the kundalini is being dispersed gradually all the time.
Thank you,
and everyone else,
Nate
Hi Anmol,
Thanks for this website.
Here are my experiences from the last week.
I had sort of panic attic from fear of death due some physical pain one night last week and then below experiences in the following three nights. These symptoms have mostly gone away now but here is the summary.
I was frightened by the experience from the night before (fear of death). I couldn’t sleep in the night, the burning sensation in the front ball of the left foot increased. Suddenly I started experiencing some movements in the chest (left)/ heart and area and arms, particularly in left side. Tingling and crawling sensations upwards. These sensations got stronger as I wanted to fall sleep but couldn’t fall sleep, these symptoms were making me very uncomfortable. It felt like my body was being overtaken. I kept moving my arms and legs to feel that they were ok and this kept me awake most of night. I also kept changing the body positions to side to side, to avoid these sensations and get some sleep. I thought something is wrong with my body that is causing all this. I was having hot flashes and had to turn down the AC. At one point I heard a chiming/bell sound in my right ear and I raised me head to see where was it coming from, I couldn’t find any source.
Tingling sensations all over the head area as well, particularly at the top. I didn’t get any sleep and all of the above experienced in night only. Tingling in the head (crown) area continued during the day. Involuntarily twitching and muscle spasms in left thigh during day.
When I looked up for these symptoms online, I came across your website. I am not sure if it was a Kundalini release for sure? At the time when I was having these I didn’t know if it was Kundalini rising. Any suggestions are much appreciated.
Thanks,
Ajay
I have always meditated and have done my yoga but in the past month I really started to do both more intently. Last night I banged my finger on something hard, and it hurt. But then I felt as though my mind become unusally clear, and I was able to remove my mind from the pain completely. Although I still felt it my mind was processing the pain in a way it never has before, like it was a seperate entity taking it in. The hour or so following I had a sudden increased awareness. Everything around me appeared so much clearer. Then, all of a sudden, I started feeling an intense pressure on my third eye chakra and my vision started going very blurry until I was blinded completely. It actually started really frightening me so I began calling out to my husband but the pressure and temporary blindness continued for about 2 minutes. Like I said, it was a bit frightening and I was wondering if anyone else has experienced a temporary vision loss with the third eye pressure before as well?
Bless you, Don. It’s fantastic that you’ve reached a new level on your journey and are even seeing auras now. I really admire your courage and your persistence. I hope I can be as blessed as you one day and am able to experience an awakening as well. Please continue to keep in touch via this blog or by e-mail or whichever. I’d love to hear what happens next with you.
I started experiencing a spontaneous Kundalini awakening in Novembe of 2010. Initially, I was terrified, particularly by feeling crawling sensations on my legs and feet. When I found myself alone one weekend at home, I was up all night, while my body was spontaneously moving around in what I later found out to be kriyas. I was convinced it was a haunting for a couple of months. On Thanksgiving, I was so scared that I went searching for a priest who does exorcisms, although I’m not Catholic.
That same night, I got tremendous surges of vibrating sensations in my lower spine. I’d get what felt like hot flashes in my left leg, and that was often accompanied by a pain in my left foot.
I was experiencing panic attacks constantly, and I got to the point that I was sleeping with the light on. My wife didn’t know how to help me, as she couldn’t possibly understand what I was feeling. Eventually, I started getting extreme vibrations in my chest and back, and tingling and crawling sensations along my face and in between my eyebrows soon followed.
I was getting headaches at the base of my skull, and what felt like electricity crackling and dripping like lava on the top of my head. Sometimes, it would feel as if someone was pressing down on my skull with their thumb. One night, I woke up to feel like I was starting to levitate, but it was only around my private area, so that scared the crap out of me. In retrospect, I know now that I just woke up as I was about to travel out of my body.
In November and most of December, I was also getting many spontaneous orgasms in the middle of the night. I started researching sexual attacks from spirits, and that only served to terrify me even more. I would finally fall asleep, only to have it happen again and again. I felt so alone, and I was starting to have suicidal thoughts. I would have panic attacks just like that, even if I was sitting down in my own living room with my family. I often would go into my room, so my kids wouldn’t see me panicking.
Eventually, I had an out-of-body experience while I was wide awake at around 3:30 in the morning. I was so terrified just before I went out of my body, and suddenly found myself smiling, as I could clearly see my own body lying in bed. What I found so amazing was that I could clearly see an angel rubbing my forehead, and covering my body with her wings, as if she were comforting me. I feel her around me a lot, and I call her Angelia.
I felt lighter than air up near the ceiling on the other side of my room. I traveled instantaneously from one room to the next, and just in awe at the most beautiful color in each room. When I returned to my body, I felt just as good as I did when my kids were born. It was pure bliss. I laid there for the next few hours completely at peace. After two months of terror, I really needed that.
That was when my fears started to drastically lessen. I released my fears to God. Now, I’m still experiencing the crawling sensations on my face and forehead, the vibrations in my chest and back, some low back pain, along with sharp pains from time to time just under my ribs on my left side, which I believe my body has been purging so many negative energies from my past. Lately, I get occasional pains in my neck that are just the same, so I feel that I must have blockages in my throat chakra. My ears don’t ring nearly as much now, since I’ve been doing chakra meditations. I still experience weird muscle spasms, or sudden jerking movements that will wake me up at times when I’ve dozed off.
Something amazing happened about two months ago. I started seeing auras around people. At first, I only saw white glows around people. One day, I started seeing many different colors. I practice with my own aura everyday. I used to only see white or green in my aura. Green is still my primary color, but I also see strong blue at times, and I just recently started seeing a ton of purple in my aura, as well. I’ve even started seeing a gold color around my head. My spiritual awareness has been going through a lot of changes. I also see beautiful auras around trees if they’re healthy. I can feel them so much more. I’ve always felt empathy, but it’s different now. It’s much more of a connection with everything.
I no longer fear any of this at all. In truth, I embrace it, and I am so thankful to be experiencing something so powerful. I look forward to continuing on this journey. I’m not fond of the back aches, but I have faith they’re just temporary. May God bless you always. I’m 41 years old, but I don’t feel that age so much anymore.
I haven’t started doing Yoga yet, but I will after I finish up with some college classes I’m taking. For now, I’ve been doing chakra meditations every day, as well as some Kundalini meditations. I’ve been impressed with the word “integrate” a few times. I’m not sure what it means, so I just wrote it down in my Kundalini journal. Maybe, it has something to do with integrating science with spirituality. I don’t know. I’ll pray more about it.
I would greatly appreciate any thoughts or advice. I’m open to keeping in touch with others going through an awakening. If any of you are struggling with the fears of a spontaneous Kundalini awakening, especially if you weren’t prepared (like I wasn’t), just know that you’re not alone. Just release your fears to God, and be thankful that you’re experiencing something spiritual on a grand scale. It did wonders for me.
Don
Hi, Anmol
I posted my question earlier but didn’t get a proper response. I said that I usually can voluntarily create goosebumps on my body. This is accompanied by something flow up my spine and reaching my brain. From years i have been trying to understand it but in vain. I did practice yoga but only mild breathing exercises and some asans. But never practiced kundalini yoga. I am 21 years old. Please provide me with an answer if you do have one.
Sincererly awaiting for your response,
Suraj
I am 28 years old, experiencing strange things since i was in 10th standard.And all this happens only when i am asleep. I have gone through all the articles published by various people here but some have written about there experience while being awake or doing meditation so i am confused if whatever i experience has something to do with Kundalini awakening or not. To list a few things i things i experience, whenever i am in deep sleep i feel vibration in my entire body and my body becomes stiff or in other words paralysis as i try to move my hand but i am unable to and if i try i feel immense pain. i feel so scared that i start chanting gayatri mantra at that time. At times whenever this happens i feel i am flying not very high but just a little above my bed where i am lying and then slowly back. i get scared as if my soul is out or some other foreign body is trying to enter my body and take possession of me. since i am scared i don’t open my eyes to while feeling this vibration and out of body experience, but at times when i have i at times see a coil as if lot of hair entangled together. The next thing that i experience is that when i am awake and lying down, watching television, as if something crawling on my leg and specially left foot and leg, The way heart beats, i feel something similar, a beating feeling below my foot, on my leg, hands, few parts of my body. i don’t know what exactly is happening and this has been happening since i was a teenager. Its really disturbing me and my family life as i recently got married and i am not able to have a healthy sexual life because of the fear that there is some other entity keeping an eye on me and surrounds me where ever i go. Are these symptoms related to kundalini, if yes how do i stop them from happening.
Thanks
Hi Anmol,
I have been having these experiences – not sure if it is Kundalini awakening but thought it might be worth sharing here and hear your thoughts.
* tingling sensation in third eye
* towards the end of the meditation, there is pull backwards as if to fall behind. If I gently allow myself, I feel very light and sway like a blade of grass in the wind.
* tiny little specks of golden orange light filling up inside the head, around the eyes/third eye region.
* during Shavasana, i visualize ice cold water entering my third eye and passing through each chakra till muladhara – I was able to visualize each chakra as a ball made up of many tiny little golden specks.
* a little bit of nerve stressed feeling in the forehead above the eyes, sometimes including the third eye and sometimes not.
* I heard wind chimes and some bells very faintly. I read in Swami Vivekananda’s texts that this is one of the symptom.
* I often hear very low rumble, like a deep faint thunder – I cannot say for sure if I’m imagining it or not because of the airport being few miles from my house. I tried closing my ears and even though the sound would disappear, the vibration will still be present.
Thank you for the article, it’s very interesting and all the personal experiences here are just unbelievable..
I’ve had an experience once when listening to an audio that helps awake the kundalini, a couple times before I was feeling like I was shrinking and my counscious is in the centre of my chest right next to my eart and above the stomach.. when I think of my brain and head, it is something above.. another time after having that very same feeling many times I was spinning like a storm around myself clockwise and it lasted so long but I can’t tell how much time exactly as I lose sense of time, it was so amazing I’d swear that I was floating and spinning in the air so fastly..
Another few experiences I had was a strange heat rising from the centre of my forehead especially when I awoke in the morning, like a pulse it gets heater than colder and so on and it lasts for like 5 minutes..
I have no idea if that’s related to the energy of kndalini but I think it is something very special and unique and it happens to me after meditation but the heat from my forehead is kind of random.
I’d like to know if someone have had the same experiences before.
Anmol —
I feel energy traveling up the spine, sensation on the forehead and the area around my eyes, light headaches, humming/vibration in the inner ear (a version of om, I guess) when everything is quiet. Also, I feel sounds from the outside vibrate with the energy along my spine. This happened probably because I started meditating a few months ago. My question is: Why are these energies important? What purpose do they serve? My mind is calmer because of meditation — I am thankful for that, but beyond that I didn’t ask for any of these energies and vibrations. How safe is it to continue this way?
Dear Liz,
Such experiences are so unique and personal that no one can say if they will reoccur for you or it will be one time only. Generally though once this process is begun and embraced, you will have many such extraordinary experiences again.
Keep up with you yoga and meditation. God is everything. Transcendence has to do with the ending of the ego and the false (which you glimpsed), the energy summoned or released is all related to that.
Best,
Anmol
Dear Anmol,
Thank you for this wonderful site. I had an experience of a full, and unexpected Kundalini awakening last week. I only found out what it was after the fact.
I was at an amazing concert, and had had a puff of marijuana (I usually don’t do any drugs, so I have no tolerance of it). I have been doing a lot of yoga recently, as I was aware of a few blocked chakras (diaphragm and throat especially) and was trying to unblock these chakras as a way to release some long held, deep grief.
At the concert, I thought I was dying. Then I thought I was losing my mind. Then I knew I had lost my mind. And I was like, well, ok, I have lost my mind, and I am just going to embrace this experience (i have a mantra: welcome every feeling that comes– and it served me so well in this circumstance) . Then something started happening in both my body and my mind. In my body, something started to move up from deep within me. It moved up, and stayed for quite a while at my mid back, where I have a serious spinal curve. The energy just hung out there for a while, trapped. Then it worked its way up through my face, and was expelled… it was intense… I was sobbing though I wasn’t making any noise or shedding any tears.
Soon after, I started having the paralysis that you described. My body just felt the need to get in these strange positions and hold them perfectly– i didn’t move at all, my eyes didn’t move, i was aware that this was strange and thought the people near me probably thought i was trying to be a statue. there were many of these poses (perhaps 3 or 4) and each lasted several minutes.
While (or just before) all of these physical changes were occurring, I became a part of something bigger… I looked back on my ego/id/self and saw it as something so limited and limiting, so arbitary, so constructed by the expectations of others. I was a part of something infinite and the ego/id had limited my connection to that.
After these physical and spiritual transitions, I began dancing, though I wasn’t dancing myself. Something else was moving the energy than went from the base of the spine to my mid-back (also where my spire curves). My spine was just being moved, something was moving it, swaying to the rhythm.
During all of this I was sitting in a chair. When I stood up, I felt radiant light cursing though my spine, but I needed to tilt my head to the right so it could get out of the way. So I moved my head and the light went out of a break between my neck vertebrae (note I had recently hurt my neck during camel pose in yoga). I just let myself be paralyzed for a bit so this energy could move through me.
Then I could see so much energy from the musician playing, as though God was playing through him. He radiated so much energy that it was painful to me.
I just wanted to share my experience here. I do have a question. Is this something that will only happen once in a lifetime, once it is released, that is it? or does the energy come back inside of us, needing to be released again? what is this energy? why does it arise? what is the relationship to this energy and god, why does releasing it enable us to transcend?
fyi: i am still doing yoga, began meditating, not doing any drugs.
peace.