The Day When My Identification With Anmol Mehta Snapped
Anmol’s Journal: Enlightenment Experiences
Last Wednesday was a day ruled by dark clouds. It was early morning here on the East Coast and I had settled into the early bus on my way to work. I try to get a window seat if possible, as I love watching the world go by, even if it’s not a great mountain range or an endless blue ocean. My little desire was fulfilled and soon I found myself staring in awe at the morning which looked like night.
You see, a tremendous storm system was moving through our area and the clouds were so thick and black that no light of the almighty Sun was able to grace the Earth and darkness had enveloped the land. The atmosphere was very mysterious. As I stared out into the near darkness I was touched by this mystical mood, that is very difficult to describe in words.
I let the peculiar feelings wash over me and without much expectation continued to just observe and drink in the poetry of the moment. For some time I was just watching. The rains soon began and the drops of water collected briefly on the window pane, before being caught by the wind and turned into a stream. The various streams merged and danced as we sped along the highway.
My awareness was then drawn to my thoughts and the various projects that I am currently engaged in. The Yoga Classes, work, this blog, etc. I felt a little weary of having to think or worry about these topics. They had obviously been on my mind a lot lately and I just did not wish to dwell on them any longer. Just then, unexpectedly my identification with Anmol Mehta completely snapped! He was still there, a creature with his life and all that it entails, but, I was completely disassociated with it. I was utterly and totally free of everything. The sense of freedom was ecstatic.
It’s not that the organism called Anmol Mehta was no longer, he was there. He continued on and I knew that he was capable of doing what was needed. He was fully equipped to live, breathe and handle his life and would be fine. I was just completely free of his and all other problems or issues. It was a freedom that could not be touched or lost. Dark clouds still filled the sky, but, the dark clouds of ignorance had lifted from my mind. The light of Truth was shinning brightly. Us Yogis say, don’t chase enlightenment, instead just keep doing your part, life will reward you in ways you never dreamed possible.
I am a regular reader of your blogs.I find them very inspiring and many times,I felt that it answered my inner questions.While I was reading your meditation experiences a thought or “worry” came in my mind “when I will be able to succesfully meditate” and then I read the next line “Yogis say, don’t chase enlightenment, instead just keep doing your part, life will reward you in ways you never dreamed possible.”which is probably the answer to that thought.
Dear Anmol,
i have been following up your exercises and videos and believe me they have done wonders for me. I never forget to thank you after every exercise or meditation video.
I recommend it to each and everyone.
Yes I have experienced this feeling more than once and it is a feeling of ecstacy ..totally surrendering to the now(sometimes for almost half a day!!) but sadly the next day my mind catches up with me..yet my heart yearns for that feeling and ecstacy to last forever!!
Keep up the great work you are doing!
God bless
Vaishali
Please shed more light on practice of moment to moment awareness. I watched your video on youtube about “7 Steps on How to Do Advanced Mind Meditation” Its just amazing and I felt peace after watching the mind making effort. That makes me conclude that my soul hears what you are saying and it works. So please share more.
Hi Anmol,
Congratulations for this experience. And thanks for sharing it. Its amazing !! I pray to God that he bestows me this state
Hi Alakeshwar,
Try the Neti Neti Advaita Vedanta meditation I describe or try the Silent Mind Meditation Technique. Both are designed to have the mind recognize itself as the root of the problem and cease.
Neither is complex, but both are arduous.
You can search for these in the search box in the top right. You should find them easily, if not let me know.
Best,
Anmol
Hi Anmol,
The experience of not being the thinker has not so far happened. I’ve worked with a whole variety of advaita techniques but I continue to identify with the thinker. Sometimes I wonder where can this maker of effort, this movement of the self ever go. One seems to be inextricably stuck with this thing that constantly longs for something or the other. It never tires of its own movement and struggle. I am this and not the other it seems.
alakeshwar
Dear Manju,
Start out with only a few minutes so you don’t take on too much load initially. Just practice sitting quietly, and observe the thought which comes and let it go. Repeat that process for the duration of the session.
Try not to get pulled in by the negative thoughts as much as possible. Just observe like you are watching a movie, let the thought come up, see it and let go.
Try for a week or so with just 5 minutes a day and let’s go from there.
Let me know.
All Good Wishes,
Anmol
dear anmol,
whenever i start meditation lots of painful thoughts comming into mind.it is very difficult. what should i do please guide me.
manju
Hey Davidya,
Thanks for stopping by and sharing your thoughts. Yes many different ways to describe this “shift in awareness” to the whole or non-dual.
Have also discovered your blog and am glad to have done so. You will certainly find me lurking there :-D.
Cheers,
Anmol
Thank you for sharing that, Anmol. I have heard the word “popped” and “switched” and “dropped” used but never “snapped”. Seems its a little different for each person when the idea is forgotten and who we are changes. The word I used is surrender, like I got the word for the first time. Now I see the whole process that way, as a release of resistance.
First time here, from a link at Tom Stine’s. Quite the resource. Will have to explore much more. Thanks again!